Not that I make poor decisions.
It’s the little, everyday, decisions that trouble me. The ones that don’t effect your day much, but you still think about it.
Like smiling at a stranger.
Staying home instead of going out.
Saying something in church.
Going to a different store first instead of the one you planned.
Changing your route home.
Sometimes I’ll regret it. Sometimes I won’t think about it ever again.
When I end up following my usual schedule despite these feelings, nothing happens anyway. When I follow these thoughts that cross my mind, nothing happens either.
I’ll often hear these stories of “I followed this prompting and something amazing happened, etc”
But I think I’ve had a hard time distinguishing between my own thoughts and promptings I might be having.
My brain just likes to overthink these little decisions and sometimes I’ll stress about it.
This has been my life for twenty years.
Recently, I’ve had kick in being more diligent and meaningful about my prayers. During this change, I’ve not only decided to change in my prayer habits, but to change as a person in other ways as well. This last week I prayed for opportunities to follow promptings.
Shortly after this change, I felt after a Relief Society lesson that I should thank the teacher for the lesson.
Even though my heart was beating like mad in my chest, I did it anyway.
I felt good about it afterwards :) I even hugged her!
My sister and I decided to take a random shopping trip. We both had been stuck at home most of the week. Our first stop is always Rue 21, because we usually score pretty big there and don’t end up going other places.
While we were there, I found plenty of clothes for a decent price. I’d definitely wear them and I’d be getting it all for about 30$.
This was about normal for me.
Except I had this feeling to not buy any of it. Confused, I went and tried them on again. They didn’t have any weird stains, and they fit me fine.
But, I still didn’t feel like buying them, so I put everything back on the rack and told Celeste I simply didn’t feel like I should get them.
Together, we walked to the store next door, Payless.
Immediately going to my size section, I found these beautiful white shoes. Actually, they were perfect for a wedding. They had silver gems and were something I could wear without dying too much. They were pretty, I liked them.
Unbanounced to me, I would be finding my wedding shoes that day. I wasn’t going looking for them, they just happened to be right there... for the same price of $30! (They were on sale!!!!)
If I hadn’t put the clothes back, I would have either spent double, or completely skipped going to the store altogether.
Even though it wasn’t anything significant, I felt like I was given an opportunity to follow a simple prompting.
I encourage everyone to pray for opportunities to change for the better in some way. Whether it to be have a chance to practice forgiveness, patience, or promptings :) I promise God will give you ways to grow, sometimes you just have to ask.
Don’t forget to be awesome!
